i will never forget the days we once had,the days when you were everything to me. my mind used to tell me we will be together forever,but now i realised that it was all a big dream. the feelings i have for you will never go. i wish i could take back that one regretful day,the day i unwillingly let you slide from my arms.never did i think of the astonishing pain of regrets that i would once have to live through.the sight of you in someone else's arms makes my heart shatter into a million pieces.i sometimes wonder if u still think of me,or if to you i am just a face in the crowd? i wish so much that one day we can have it all back.but for now,i'll sit here silently remembering all the memories we once shared. for whatever i do will not be seen.whatever i do will be worthless. waiting for you is considered doing something stupid? when in the end the only reply i get from u is "u think it is worth?" that hurts me so much.i'm doing all i can to keep u,i'm doing anything to be there for u. but everytime u are just so busy for me but not anyone else. i decided to rush back,get my documents done and visit u over there instead,but it's worthless in the end.after all the rush and getting the document which i had been eager to have for so long,it's just worthless..i won't get to use it to visit u anymore.everyday my love grows much stronger.u know how much i am into u.but yet?

since the first time i met you, and lately, i seem to find that you're always on my mind. i feel so happy around you,i thank God that i found you.at first i thought of you as a really good friend.but i realised that my feelings didn't end there. i was so afraid to tell u then, cause i didn't know what you will do.then i heard u felt the same way and those words were so easy to say. when i see u smile,it makes my life worth while. since the very start,u've been in my heart when my life skies are dark and grey.but u were the one to chase all the storm clouds away. i've never felt this way before but i'm glad that we meet. for now my life is complete. you were like the one sent from heaven. if it's not for you,i wouldn't feel this inner peace.i'll never have the pleasures of romance. i want to feel ur tender touch, to hear your voice. no other could take ur place. if it's not for you,i wouldn't know what to do. those words you said sound so true. a year has passed, and i'm so glad i have you.

you are like the sun in my sky! ♥

u said u will be the one protecting me, making sure i won't get hurt, ensuring i am happy.

but why are you the one hurting me instead?

can you understand my feelings?

or you don't bother anymore?

this is the worst experience.

i used to think it was my fault all along.

yet even i treat u at the best now,it's still the same.

am i still the one bringing trouble?

i don't want to let you go.

but i don't think i can.

i am heart broken.

this time i finally know how it feels like to be heart broken.

are you still going to be the one there for me?

are you still going to be the one to heal me?

How time passed away,all the trouble..and all hose days we spent out.has it all gone to waste? all the promises we made,one by one they vanish..of all the things i remember,hoping it's still the same.months go by,and time just seem to fly..but the memories remain.it's like yesterday that we are still out together.nothing to lose but everything to gain.reflecting now on how things could've been.will it be worth in the end? now it all seem so clear,that hopefully there is nothing left to fear..trying not to reach for something that's already gone.we knew we had to leave,but we never knew when and we never knew how.we would end up here the way we are...

it was only just another day,when all these felt so real like nothing could go wrong.it was like a never ending dream...nothing ever changed for so long.but now it seems you've gone away.and i'm trying to the page,but it's just not the same.i'm wide awake but i can't hear a sound..i just can't think about another you,another me or another now.where do i go from here?where could i go?where should i go?i've never felt so strange,never felt so torn..cause ever since you came my way,i learned to live by you..and now,i'm on my own.

i know i need some time, to leave all this behind cause i'm still hanging on! i'm sitting here,all alone..nowhere to move,nowhere to go.nothing to do but i just don't wana hurt,cause u are not here~